I know I should start thinking different… I mean, that was a long time ago. I tried. I swear I tried. I really did. But the doubts inside me have never left me. Not even a bit. Not even once.
I know I should trust, but man, that’s so freaking hard.
The thoughts in my head are screams bullshits in my hears and there’s absolutely nothing I can do.
The only thing I have been doing for the last 1 hour was to think. Think that I can get fucked up one more time.
Would she do it again? Could she?!
I want to get rid of this crap in my head but I just can’t. Not right now.
The only thing I can do is go to bed, and try to be ok. Tomorrow is a new day. She’ll be back cuz she’s mine. But was she mine the entire night?! Is she telling the truth?? I’ll never know.
As I said, the only thing I can do, is go to bed.